I was watching the clouds that floated across the clear sky, sometimes you notice in the vibrant color that the clouds are light and fluffy, do you ever wonder if they are soft if you could lose yourself in them if you could rest upon one. If you look closely you can almost see a glittering hint of color imbued in the lush folds. As if they were dusted in finely crushed diamonds. The late would reflect a prism of color that is captivating and beautiful. I could sit for ahns and watch the clouds.
There are days I play a game my father used to show me,in those rare moments of quiet and tranquility, if you lay on the grass and look up you can see various shapes whether of people, animals and objects, he would make a game out of it with me. Over time though as I grew older and I learned more of my clan I realized that I could see more in them, subtle messages that would be refracted and hinted at. At first they were confusing to interpet.And it took many turnings to realize just what I was being shown, now I can do it with little effort when need be, just as I learned the knowledge of them and how they are helpful in times of need as well.
As I sat by the clan fires watching the clouds I found my thoughts drifting to various things and people. Some get a bit disappointed or irritated when I will not play into things they say and do. And yet they know I will remain true to who I am regardless of what it may bring me good and bad. I do not elaborate on specific things even though some outside of the clan attempt to portray they have our ways, I will not acknowledge it as I know that if it were so they would be of this clan. You can't just choose to be of this clan. We are one of the few that are born into it, there is no choice in it. But I do not get into these little things Because there are more important things in life than those who seek to be what they are not or be who they are not. I often wonder why do people try to be some one else.
I happened a few nights ago to wander by the main fires, sometimes I stay away just to try and keep myself together and I know that when I am anti social it just only brings trouble. And I can find that on my own pretty easily. Something drew me from the work I was involved in and I knew to follow it, I saw Cana and Kaeli and Jai there. Kaeli was in labor and I saw that Cana had all well in hand, she was rather experienced with this now. I neared and helped as needed, Jai I know wanted to be as involved in the experience as much as possible and who can blame him, but... I had to move him out of the way, he had his legs around Kaeli 's knees and he was just in my way, he for a moment started to give me a hard time on it, now I put it to him straight, either he could move or he could deliver the babies himself. I think at first he was a bit upset, but I am straight talking, and he was in the damn way I needed him where he could help the most, I think that the logic of what I said sunk in and he moved to where he could support her the best which allowed me to move to where I needed to be. It took some ahns but she first delivered a healthy baby boy that had lungs that could awaken all of the plains I think. I gave Jai the honor of cutting the cord, it is something I have often done for fathers when I in the past delivered babies, sometimes I think he thinks me rather new at a few things wouldn't he just be shocked at just what all I do know. I have delivered more babies than he has been alive in turnings. The next babe was slightly askew, I warned them that I had to manually help turn this one. I found it funny Cana's words about she thought it would have been the boy that was born ass first. Now that I found truly funny. It amused me greatly.
As it was the next one a smaller but still healthy a girl.. And I think her lungs were even stronger than that of her brothers, this one also Jai cut the cord. As Cana prepared them and took care of them I cleaned up Kaeli and helped her get situated so she could enjoy her babies. Jai presented each one separately to the skies. They were perfect as in all children are perfect upon birth. There is something about them when they are so small. I found myself for a moment wishing to have been with child, perhaps the daughter we had talked of. But I knew that this was not something that was going to happen any time soon. I can feel a moment of envy and acknowledge that it is there before I push it aside.
It was good to see two more tuchuks arrive safely and be healthy, the tribe flourishes. The skies have blessed them with such a gift.
There are days I play a game my father used to show me,in those rare moments of quiet and tranquility, if you lay on the grass and look up you can see various shapes whether of people, animals and objects, he would make a game out of it with me. Over time though as I grew older and I learned more of my clan I realized that I could see more in them, subtle messages that would be refracted and hinted at. At first they were confusing to interpet.And it took many turnings to realize just what I was being shown, now I can do it with little effort when need be, just as I learned the knowledge of them and how they are helpful in times of need as well.
As I sat by the clan fires watching the clouds I found my thoughts drifting to various things and people. Some get a bit disappointed or irritated when I will not play into things they say and do. And yet they know I will remain true to who I am regardless of what it may bring me good and bad. I do not elaborate on specific things even though some outside of the clan attempt to portray they have our ways, I will not acknowledge it as I know that if it were so they would be of this clan. You can't just choose to be of this clan. We are one of the few that are born into it, there is no choice in it. But I do not get into these little things Because there are more important things in life than those who seek to be what they are not or be who they are not. I often wonder why do people try to be some one else.
I happened a few nights ago to wander by the main fires, sometimes I stay away just to try and keep myself together and I know that when I am anti social it just only brings trouble. And I can find that on my own pretty easily. Something drew me from the work I was involved in and I knew to follow it, I saw Cana and Kaeli and Jai there. Kaeli was in labor and I saw that Cana had all well in hand, she was rather experienced with this now. I neared and helped as needed, Jai I know wanted to be as involved in the experience as much as possible and who can blame him, but... I had to move him out of the way, he had his legs around Kaeli 's knees and he was just in my way, he for a moment started to give me a hard time on it, now I put it to him straight, either he could move or he could deliver the babies himself. I think at first he was a bit upset, but I am straight talking, and he was in the damn way I needed him where he could help the most, I think that the logic of what I said sunk in and he moved to where he could support her the best which allowed me to move to where I needed to be. It took some ahns but she first delivered a healthy baby boy that had lungs that could awaken all of the plains I think. I gave Jai the honor of cutting the cord, it is something I have often done for fathers when I in the past delivered babies, sometimes I think he thinks me rather new at a few things wouldn't he just be shocked at just what all I do know. I have delivered more babies than he has been alive in turnings. The next babe was slightly askew, I warned them that I had to manually help turn this one. I found it funny Cana's words about she thought it would have been the boy that was born ass first. Now that I found truly funny. It amused me greatly.
As it was the next one a smaller but still healthy a girl.. And I think her lungs were even stronger than that of her brothers, this one also Jai cut the cord. As Cana prepared them and took care of them I cleaned up Kaeli and helped her get situated so she could enjoy her babies. Jai presented each one separately to the skies. They were perfect as in all children are perfect upon birth. There is something about them when they are so small. I found myself for a moment wishing to have been with child, perhaps the daughter we had talked of. But I knew that this was not something that was going to happen any time soon. I can feel a moment of envy and acknowledge that it is there before I push it aside.
It was good to see two more tuchuks arrive safely and be healthy, the tribe flourishes. The skies have blessed them with such a gift.
