I spent the morning with Arkus talking of many things he has made a choice, one that he is not sure how a few others will take but it is what he wants. I have listened to his thoughts and it struck me how he has grown into a strong, independent young man who thinks like a warrior should. There are some he will never be close to he has his reasons. I do not force him or Hallie, they will determine things in their way in their own time. Just as Hallie has chosen her path and learns much from Cana, and I could not be more pleased or proud. They both have chosen well, and chosen what they feel is right for them, and if they are happy in who they are then they are more of a benefit to the tribe because they will do the best they can not only on their chosen path but for the people.
I asked him a few questions of what he thought of various situations and people, he gave them with an unbiased honesty of youth. I asked him what it is he wanted from life and of the path he chose, I was pleased with the answers. Because of this I have given my consent for him to move in with Ayguili as the scarrer has requested. I had given much thought to the warrior's request and the reason behind it, there was much logic in it that I could not nor would I refute, he is able to teach my son the things I cannot, Father and Garyx have taught him their ways and all the things a young upcoming warrior needs to know, now Ayguili will take over and teach him the ways of the clan and other things that a young man needs to know that I cannot show him or teach him. It was his thought my son could learn more from him if he was there with him. So, I agreed, I do always think of what benefits my children before I think of what I want, yes as a mother I do not want to let go, but I know that it is time, he has shown me all the signs, and now I must watch and let him falter and get back up. I can only be there to support him when he needs me and listen when he needs someone to talk to. He has a fine warrior to learn from. He carries many ways that I feel are important, and who knows he may even learn something from my son.
This is a choice Arkus has made, he feels sure of this, I will support it. As I told him, follow what you feel is right for the tribe, right for you and what you feel in your heart is the right choice. You can listen to what others say, but you do not need to take everything anyone says as being right, take what you need and throw away what you do not need or want, formulate your own thoughts and opinions. They may not always be what is popular but if you feel strong enough then stand your ground, it may not always be what others want but if your gut tells you it is what is right, then follow it. Do not give into the peer pressure if you feel it is wrong, sometimes you may be the only one with the thought or think that it is right, but stand tall and proud in what you believe in, because it is better to stand for what you believe in and have the courage and strength to do so, than it is to stand for nothing or give in to everything any one says. I have given him all the tools to help him make choices, now he will learn more. He is very excited about this and knows he will have to work hard, he will not have idle time to be involved in the drama that sometimes seems to land at times. His focus will be learning what his mentor will teach him, working to earn his courage scar and continuing his lessons from my father. This I have his word on. He will be working hard, I have no doubt he will succeed.
I have talked with my father on this and he is in agreement,it is the best choice that my son could have made, it has shown his intelligence and his focus to be more for the tribe. He is willing to sacrifice and work to obtain his goal. I am very proud of him.
Father and I spent some time talking of many things as well, I shared with him my thoughts on things I saw and what I thought they meant. As always he would listen, he would never tell me what to do but he would often give his thoughts on his interpretation of things. I would absorb his thoughts and add them to my own. There were some things revealed I was not sure of, but he gave me a perception on them I had not thought of.
As I go to the wagons of the clan I think upon his words. I will spend a few ehn with the other elders catching up on various things and sitting with some of the younger students, I will not be actively showing anything but I will merely guide them on a few things that do not take much work on my part. That way I can't get that proverbial slap along side my head from one of the others. I think they enjoy it to much, after all I am not a young kid any more. In fact I am older than a couple of them, go figure the humor of an elder.
I asked him a few questions of what he thought of various situations and people, he gave them with an unbiased honesty of youth. I asked him what it is he wanted from life and of the path he chose, I was pleased with the answers. Because of this I have given my consent for him to move in with Ayguili as the scarrer has requested. I had given much thought to the warrior's request and the reason behind it, there was much logic in it that I could not nor would I refute, he is able to teach my son the things I cannot, Father and Garyx have taught him their ways and all the things a young upcoming warrior needs to know, now Ayguili will take over and teach him the ways of the clan and other things that a young man needs to know that I cannot show him or teach him. It was his thought my son could learn more from him if he was there with him. So, I agreed, I do always think of what benefits my children before I think of what I want, yes as a mother I do not want to let go, but I know that it is time, he has shown me all the signs, and now I must watch and let him falter and get back up. I can only be there to support him when he needs me and listen when he needs someone to talk to. He has a fine warrior to learn from. He carries many ways that I feel are important, and who knows he may even learn something from my son.
This is a choice Arkus has made, he feels sure of this, I will support it. As I told him, follow what you feel is right for the tribe, right for you and what you feel in your heart is the right choice. You can listen to what others say, but you do not need to take everything anyone says as being right, take what you need and throw away what you do not need or want, formulate your own thoughts and opinions. They may not always be what is popular but if you feel strong enough then stand your ground, it may not always be what others want but if your gut tells you it is what is right, then follow it. Do not give into the peer pressure if you feel it is wrong, sometimes you may be the only one with the thought or think that it is right, but stand tall and proud in what you believe in, because it is better to stand for what you believe in and have the courage and strength to do so, than it is to stand for nothing or give in to everything any one says. I have given him all the tools to help him make choices, now he will learn more. He is very excited about this and knows he will have to work hard, he will not have idle time to be involved in the drama that sometimes seems to land at times. His focus will be learning what his mentor will teach him, working to earn his courage scar and continuing his lessons from my father. This I have his word on. He will be working hard, I have no doubt he will succeed.
I have talked with my father on this and he is in agreement,it is the best choice that my son could have made, it has shown his intelligence and his focus to be more for the tribe. He is willing to sacrifice and work to obtain his goal. I am very proud of him.
Father and I spent some time talking of many things as well, I shared with him my thoughts on things I saw and what I thought they meant. As always he would listen, he would never tell me what to do but he would often give his thoughts on his interpretation of things. I would absorb his thoughts and add them to my own. There were some things revealed I was not sure of, but he gave me a perception on them I had not thought of.
As I go to the wagons of the clan I think upon his words. I will spend a few ehn with the other elders catching up on various things and sitting with some of the younger students, I will not be actively showing anything but I will merely guide them on a few things that do not take much work on my part. That way I can't get that proverbial slap along side my head from one of the others. I think they enjoy it to much, after all I am not a young kid any more. In fact I am older than a couple of them, go figure the humor of an elder.
