I have not yet left my personal fires today, for this morning I still find fatigue clinging to me refusing to release its hold. By now I should have had much to do. I have done as Garyx requested and not over do it and to rest. Now, he could have easily order or demand that I do nothing, but he did not, I know that his request came from his concern. He alone saw the effects of the ritual upon me, of how not enough furs could warm me. Of how it seemed as if every bit of energy had been drained of me, in truth it took more out of me than I let on to him or anyone else. I would not worry him. As he held me during the night the warmth of him enveloping me as I slept a deep sleep. No dreams, no thoughts just nothingness. In his arms I was protected, safe, secure and loved.
I assured him when he went out on patrol that all was good, I could not have him distracted with worry about me when he needed his focus and wits about him on patrol, especially know that Kassar have been sighted and even one a captive. Surely she doesn't strive to seek her place here other than as a slave, because she is no Tuchuk. And no one here would welcome her, she does not have a right to be part of us other than a lowly slave that would work to keep her life. I would kill her first chance I got, after all they owe me. A life for a life. An eye for an eye. They took my son, now first chance I get I will take one of theirs. I am a vengeful bitch at times and I don't apologize for it. Nor would I.
Kaeli has been doing well, she strives to prove herself. I do not yet fully trust her, but, she has shown much potential and what I have seen speaks of much, she acknowledges when she has done something she should not have, and endeavors to learn from it and correct it. She is yet young and has much to learn, but I see the efforts she makes to prove herself, she does not give up when faced with the challenges that all prospects endure. She might falter, but she does not give up. And I rather think she and Jai are well suited together. Perhaps if she makes it I might play matchmaker, he deserves to have happiness in his heart once more. To long has he closed himself off, opening himself to those not right for him, perhaps he will see what is before him. With a little help of course.
I have not seen the other prospect Rayen much, her I do not trust, she gives answers that can be obtained from any source, she does not have a tuchuk heart or spirit. She has much yet to prove herself, I hope that Cana is careful,and does not develop a deep affection for her, because I would have to kill the woman if she hurt Cana. Then there is the newest one, Aponi. A young blonde child she makes claims by name dropping, and that hardly impresses me. She has no drop of tuchuk blood in her so why would I care who she knew or didn't know. I do know that she thinks she should be here why simply because her adoptive mother was tuchuk, someone who was rarely around to begin with, and I have a hard time believing this woman is her daughter, because she is to old to be her daughter. Even on Gor we don't grow up that fast. So I already have doubts of her. When asked what she has to offer to the tribe or the people, her answer remains the same that she is a leather worker. Now I have to wonder, what does that mean, that she is far more skilled than those we have? Or that she thinks that is what we need. It hardly explains to me what value she offers to us. So far I see nothing that would warrant her being a free woman of the tuchuk. She lacks the heart and spirit of the people. The only thing that gives her credit is she has blue eyes, I can add those to my jar. Her hair would make good rope to bind her with. She is way to submissive in nature, she holds the ways of dwellers, she is tainted with their ways. She will have a long hard path in proving herself. Because she has done nothing to show why we would accept her, and the women of the tribe that allow a prospect to take care of their children, they should be whipped for forgetting how we treat strangers, prospects and unscarred warriors, absolutely no way would I allow a prospect to watch over my children, what better way to wound us than thru our children. No I think not.
I must say, Cana, got her ire up last night and most eloquently she ripped the blonde prospect a new backside, it was well done. I have to admit, I rather liked that fire that she showed. She nailed her with facts and thank the skies she removed those annoying beads, the girl fidgets way to much, much to timid and weak to make it here. She thinks her looks and smiles will get her what she wants, all it will get her is a collar, because her actions make her less than cute.
I was enjoying the tormenting Jai and his son also rendered upon her. You know they would make good cohorts in crime when it comes to strangers and prospects.. Now if only I could get them to give me that kassar captive. Wouldn't that make good payment for services I have to render, mmm now there is a thought, one I might have to explore.
All to soon I had to rest .Though before I did I gave Kaeli a gift to use within the clan she aspires to be a part of, I think she was surprised by it and what I gave her. Little does she know that I have many things stocked up in my wagons, many things from over the envars that I had been given by various people, and of course my trade contacts in various places, that I had developed back when I worked as a merchant in order to survive. But, some things are left unsaid and unknown, I use what I have for the tribe. And she has earned this small gift.
I fell asleep before Garyx returned from patrol, but I knew he was there, I felt him the moment he lay beside me and pulled me to him. And once more I rested within his arms, the one place that I never question belonging. We have a bond that neither of us would or could explain, it goes beyond the love we share. He always knows how to handle me. That in and of itself is a rare gift. One we each cherish and treasure, and we work daily on our relationship never taking it for granted.
I assured him when he went out on patrol that all was good, I could not have him distracted with worry about me when he needed his focus and wits about him on patrol, especially know that Kassar have been sighted and even one a captive. Surely she doesn't strive to seek her place here other than as a slave, because she is no Tuchuk. And no one here would welcome her, she does not have a right to be part of us other than a lowly slave that would work to keep her life. I would kill her first chance I got, after all they owe me. A life for a life. An eye for an eye. They took my son, now first chance I get I will take one of theirs. I am a vengeful bitch at times and I don't apologize for it. Nor would I.
Kaeli has been doing well, she strives to prove herself. I do not yet fully trust her, but, she has shown much potential and what I have seen speaks of much, she acknowledges when she has done something she should not have, and endeavors to learn from it and correct it. She is yet young and has much to learn, but I see the efforts she makes to prove herself, she does not give up when faced with the challenges that all prospects endure. She might falter, but she does not give up. And I rather think she and Jai are well suited together. Perhaps if she makes it I might play matchmaker, he deserves to have happiness in his heart once more. To long has he closed himself off, opening himself to those not right for him, perhaps he will see what is before him. With a little help of course.
I have not seen the other prospect Rayen much, her I do not trust, she gives answers that can be obtained from any source, she does not have a tuchuk heart or spirit. She has much yet to prove herself, I hope that Cana is careful,and does not develop a deep affection for her, because I would have to kill the woman if she hurt Cana. Then there is the newest one, Aponi. A young blonde child she makes claims by name dropping, and that hardly impresses me. She has no drop of tuchuk blood in her so why would I care who she knew or didn't know. I do know that she thinks she should be here why simply because her adoptive mother was tuchuk, someone who was rarely around to begin with, and I have a hard time believing this woman is her daughter, because she is to old to be her daughter. Even on Gor we don't grow up that fast. So I already have doubts of her. When asked what she has to offer to the tribe or the people, her answer remains the same that she is a leather worker. Now I have to wonder, what does that mean, that she is far more skilled than those we have? Or that she thinks that is what we need. It hardly explains to me what value she offers to us. So far I see nothing that would warrant her being a free woman of the tuchuk. She lacks the heart and spirit of the people. The only thing that gives her credit is she has blue eyes, I can add those to my jar. Her hair would make good rope to bind her with. She is way to submissive in nature, she holds the ways of dwellers, she is tainted with their ways. She will have a long hard path in proving herself. Because she has done nothing to show why we would accept her, and the women of the tribe that allow a prospect to take care of their children, they should be whipped for forgetting how we treat strangers, prospects and unscarred warriors, absolutely no way would I allow a prospect to watch over my children, what better way to wound us than thru our children. No I think not.
I must say, Cana, got her ire up last night and most eloquently she ripped the blonde prospect a new backside, it was well done. I have to admit, I rather liked that fire that she showed. She nailed her with facts and thank the skies she removed those annoying beads, the girl fidgets way to much, much to timid and weak to make it here. She thinks her looks and smiles will get her what she wants, all it will get her is a collar, because her actions make her less than cute.
I was enjoying the tormenting Jai and his son also rendered upon her. You know they would make good cohorts in crime when it comes to strangers and prospects.. Now if only I could get them to give me that kassar captive. Wouldn't that make good payment for services I have to render, mmm now there is a thought, one I might have to explore.
All to soon I had to rest .Though before I did I gave Kaeli a gift to use within the clan she aspires to be a part of, I think she was surprised by it and what I gave her. Little does she know that I have many things stocked up in my wagons, many things from over the envars that I had been given by various people, and of course my trade contacts in various places, that I had developed back when I worked as a merchant in order to survive. But, some things are left unsaid and unknown, I use what I have for the tribe. And she has earned this small gift.
I fell asleep before Garyx returned from patrol, but I knew he was there, I felt him the moment he lay beside me and pulled me to him. And once more I rested within his arms, the one place that I never question belonging. We have a bond that neither of us would or could explain, it goes beyond the love we share. He always knows how to handle me. That in and of itself is a rare gift. One we each cherish and treasure, and we work daily on our relationship never taking it for granted.
